So I haven't been on blogspot is days. Literally. Things have been changing so much. Time is running out. Change is the only constant in life. People have changed so much. Looking back.. things are crazy. The hierarchy was different, all of these things.. everything is so changed. Relationships, misinformation, friendships, music tastes, groups, cliques, haters, senior year has been the craziest ever. Its been nearly a semester and I feel like my life has been blowing by. I feel like my whole life has been compacted into these last few weeks. My whole life is so quick. I never have time to just sit down and breath, I feel like I'm wasting my days. This tiny bit of life is so ridiculous. This first half of senior year.. already so much has been crammed into my life. Lifestyles, massive, enormous steps have happened in my life. License, relationships, friendship drama, friends lost and gained. Its crazy. And the thing is, there are what, 800 people in my school, a couple hundred are seniors. And theyre all living the senior life. And thats a couple more hundred for all the other schools in the area. Across the state, the nation, the world.. across international waters, places I've never seen, languages I've never heard.. its crazy. The world is so vast. Our group isn't even a group anymore. There is no crew. There will be no high school football games for me. Ever. Everyone and everyone smokes pot. We're growing up hella fast. Our weekends seem so long, away from each other, we cram so much into week days too. Its all parties, drinking, smoking, slappin, partyiiiing whoo! The kick its lose control, sobriety does not exist. All the bad things in life spread like cancer. Things happen..
I haven't even lived my life yet, yet so much flies through my mind when I'm in this state.
All over the world.. things are so vast. I feel another change. Winter is coming. We are not who we were last November. The last few months.. The last year.. Twin Peaks, Grizzly Peaks, the prime of our friendships, the playful youth we all shared, going on adventures constantly.
I hate being stereotyped, hate being classified. I hate nearly all of you. I want to live in a movie.
