2.15.2010

WHEN WILL IT GO AWAY?

push, pull, push, pull

It's that time of year again

1. It was really weird when we first started being friends because we were like arch enemies when we first met. Still, I think I tell you everything. We got so close.

2. You always make yourself the victim in the situation, you can't ever own up to your flaws. Stop wasting time.

3. You've been like a brother to me, we've been tight for the longest time bro. I really think we'll be friends forever, no lie.

4. I'm really confused about our friendship. Sometimes I feel like its the old days, really good friends and all and carefree.. but other times I feel as though we're just straining this. You don't have to try this hard to make something work. Sorry.

5. I see you as my counterpart. I know we never have time for each other and the little time we find together isn't full of what we used to talk about. But I still enjoy myself.

6. From you, I've learn that assuming is bad. But you assume too, so I stopped learning and just keep making the same mistakes.

7. Everyone talks shit about you behind your back, me included. I don't mean it. I don't know why I do it. I really think you're a great friend. Its just you annoy people a bunch. I don't see it.

8. I am really happy I met you, you're like my partner in crime. You do dumbass shit and so do I but things are kush. Nice knowing you egghead. I'm sorry for all the mean jokes and teasing. You know I don't mean it. I'm glad I was born.

9. You bitch and complain and whine for hours under the sun. And for some reason everyone puts up with it. I do too. Its really weird.

10. The day we first hung out was weird. I didn't even know you. But over time, things got better and we got pretty damn close. Come back :( we need to go back on a retreat!

11. You really are one of the nicest people I've met. You're so modest too, you don't take advantage of anyone. Thanks for the rides and everything else.

12. You can be really annoying sometimes but you're still one of my closest friends. I really think you make the stupidest choices though. Fucking baby. I love you anyway besty.

13. We used to be super tight. Sleepovers all the time. Deep talks and crazy adventures. What happened? I miss the old us. Good times we had. Gotta start hanging out again bro :(

14. Nigga, everyone says you're shady but I haven't seen that side of you. I'm afraid someday soon I will. I get along with you fine and I fear disliking you.

15. I hate the way you treat me sometimes. I love the way you treat me sometimes. You're just so confusing. Are we even friends?

16. I'm not sure how you never think you're doing something wrong. I mean its obvious. But thats just me.

17. You're a cool dude. Sucks no one else thinks so. Your past is just too fucked up I think. You weren't the only one that caused all the trouble in the group, it sucks that you were blamed.

18. I miss you. Your girlfriend seems to have stolen you, but who am I to blame? I think we'd drift indefinitely, just not like this. Whenever I text you it takes forever for a response. I hate that. Not once have I gotten mad at you. You never hit me up.

19. Through all the fucked up things you've done to other people, I still see you as a major homie. Luckily, you can't do that mean shit to us guys. I hope someday you stop being so selfish.

20. I feel as though I do not know you anymore and your personality has changed so much I feel as though I never will. Back in the day we had some good times but now I don't even think you hang out with our old friends.

21. I don't hang around you enough but you're a good guy. You can be pretty stingy though.

22. You're funny, you're so fucking goofy. I like how you're good friends with everyone. You make the funniest inside jokes. Mhm.

23. Honestly, no one takes shit like you can. Girls and friends have fucked you over and you still come back strong. I'm jealous. I'm also jealous of all the attention you get. I don't think you've ever gotten me mad, all I see is nice-ness.

24. I've heard you changed. I haven't talked to you for awhile. I liked our friendship when it would just be us talking about shoes and stereotypical shit. Sometime soon I'll make an effort to revive our friendship but for now have fun with whoever you chose.

25. I see you as a close friend. You can be irritating and a complete asshole but thats fine by me. Just kidding, you're really nice and funny bro. Lake Oroville.

26. Supposedly you can be super shady and all but I'm not sure. I hear you talk a lot of shit about me.. but in person you're pretty nice. I don't know what to think.

27. One of the main homies. I've known you for quite awhile, we've been though a lot together. We need a middle school reunion. Best hair cutter ever.

28. Even though we just met this year, a bunch of things have happened. We've always hung out around the same people but I think sooner or later me and you will get close. Our personalities get along fine.

29. I will always feel the tension when we talk. There will always be bad blood between us I think, nothing can fix the past. I just wish some things could be forgotten.

30. You have been MIA, when are you gonna have a sleepover? Over the summer your house was the best. I never hear from you. Ever.

31. Another of the main homies. Bro what happened? We all used to be super tight and now.. I have no clue. I just wish you came through with your plans and hung out with me every now and then instead of just hanging out when we randomly see each other.

32. After about two years between what happened I will always feel that sting of betrayal. It feels as though gravity increases tenfold around you. I can't stand the sight of you.

33. There was never anything there. You do have a good taste in music though. You are a flake.

34. You talk the best shit. Remember those videos we made during the summer of 8th grade to freshman year? Good times. Don't mess with 50.

35. I never ever hear from you. We haven't kicked it in forever. You still make it to my top tho, our friends hang out together, so why don't we?

36. I think you may be one of my bestfriends. We almost always have the same attitude to whatever issue we're talking about. You do some crazy ass shit bro. You're a fucking boss. But you can also be the biggest asshole and be hella mean, but its all good, I love you anyways.

37. What kind of friend are you? You tell us to hit you up. Whenever you're bored you hang out with us but when you're having fun you don't even bother responding to texts? Some friend. You whine just the same.

38. I just can't seem to read you correctly. There will be a better time for this. I used to get good vibes from you but now all I feel is resentment. So confusing.

39. You have given me everything. I've experienced every emotion with you. From the saddest sads, maddest mads, to the happiest happys.. and you still confuse me after all this time. I just can't get rid of you.