Today Julia picked me up and we drove around Benicia, said hi to people, then got dropped back off. Later went to Austins then headed to the movies to meet with Sam, Sarah, Julia and Camille. Watched Public Enemies. The two latter girls were so loud.. afterwards walked to wendys and grubbed, went back to austins and chilled, and rode bikes and watched ufc shit. Lex picks me up and we debate and eat wingstop, go home, aim, sleep...
I'm constantly reminded to stay with the single life..
I'm so excited to take psych, like me and my sister always have conversations about it and small debates and opinions and that shit is so interesting, I think I've finally figured out what I wanna be when I grow up.. a rhetoric major
And another thing.. I always miss everything..
Also I think I have the best sister in the world, who ever has a dysfunctional sibling relationship is unfortunate cause my mine is just so cool nowadays, always giving rides and food and advice and shit..
I honestly think I could be doing something better with my life. I mean spending time with friends is great and all but its just the routine. Wake up early, don't do anything and try to unsucessfully plan something. Usually hang out hella late in the day. Don't do anything at night, cruise myspace and aim and listen to music and watch tvs and movies and try to occupy my time and shit, then sleep late and repeat. Its become a grueling process similar to talking to a 3 year old or *******. Idk, maybe its just me, I feel like I'm in a slump, like.. idk, its just I wanna do something big with friends, hopefully the 4th will bring my spirits up. I hope I don't get all depressed and wimpy again, I hate those times ya know... when the only time you're happy is when you're sidetracked and shit, when you're with friends... then after all you do is think about life and stuff. I think I'm desperate when looking for a girl, I know I say that a lot but yaah, well in my head I think I like a girl then I notice a flaw or something and then the feelings are gone but not completely, I mean theres always residual feelings or permenent ones or idk. I'm blabbering
There's nothing worth the wear of winning, but laughter and the love of friends
